I have come to the end of Chapter 6 and the halfway point for the Artist Way 12 chapter experience. Interesting that this Chapter has to do with creative blocks with money-$$$$$. I ended up asking -do we all have creative blocks with money? Do other people struggle with this concept of abundance in life? My perceptions on how others live overwhelm my own reality. I have come to the conclusion that I loved not having to worry about where money would come from. My parents were very generous and took care of all their kids needs- we went to great schools and they set us up for a great life. The next step was handing over the reigns to me to take care of myself and I have come to realize that I have always questioned my ability to be affluent. Then knowing this, I have tried to channel the mantra- “Money comes easily and frequently.” couple with we shall always have enough! But it was harder to look at my desire to be paid for my gifts rather than what I have defined as the legitimate profession that I have chosen. I acknowledge that I have a block in the ability to make a living doing what I love to do using my creative talents. Why? It is true that I have been taught as child that there are certain professions that make money and others are just hobbies- then I look around for role models that are making a good living in creative careers flourishing! I get this- just how do I change this way of thinking- AHhh the challenge lies there! I live a good life and I am so grateful for this life, but I see the blocks- challenged to go back to my passions and follow through because I hit a wall of limited possibiity that only happens in my mind. Right?
So I have gone through the tasks this week with a renewed interest- Feeling a lot of anxiety which generally means to me that this is an important chapter to really delve into and think about- ahh the anxiety! the fear! the obstacles! All because of green energy and the validation that comes with it ! The author of the Artist Way stated that this week may feel volatile and she was not kidding!!!
One task was creativity- suggests that you bake something!
So my daughter bought a book called Tina Cocolina – the Queen of cupcakes and we set out to make cupcakes-
She suggests that this activity enables other areas of artistic creativity- it was fun! My daughter was really excited and I decided to take her on a creative expedition- we went back to Color me Mine to paint and it was a great day!
I am still experiencing a large block to return to my book- I am a little overwhelmed by the anxiety that it will be a failure and how very self-centered of me to think that my life story is important or could be important to others- so I stalled. But then again I read a beautiful quote by Iyanla Vanzant on facebook as follows:
Something that I needed to hear- now to figure out how to be productive again- I did sit down and clarified my thoughts and immediate dreams- this has got to help somewhat!
Another task has you going back to the Basic Principles of the Artist Way- set out as follows:
Creativity is the natural order of life. Life is energy: pure creative energy.
There is an underlying, in-dwelling creative force infusing all of life – including ourselves.
When we open ourselves to our creativity, we open ourselves to the creator’s creativity within us and our lives.
We are, ourselves, creations. And we, in turn, are meant to continue creativity by being creative ourselves.
Creativity is God’s gift to us. Using our creativity is our gift back to God.
The refusal to be creative is self-will and is counter to our true nature.
When we open ourselves to exploring our creativity, we open ourselves to God: good orderly direction.
As we open our creative channel to the creator, many gentle but powerful changes are to be expected.
It is safe to open ourselves up to greater and greater creativity.
Our creative dreams and yearnings come from a divine source. As we move toward our dreams, we move toward our divinity. {Basic Principles, page 3***I am highlighting the ones that are particularly relevant to me- it is supposed to revitalize the program for me! I highlighted 3- and it is very interesting what comes up- I feel that if good things happen for me and I move toward my divinity – bad things will happen as well- I lost my mother! I know this may not be logic, but it is an identified fear. If things go well, when will the bottom fall out- what will I lose? Why do I feel this way if God wants abundance for us?
Another task has you looking at any new flow in your life? I had a lot of good things happen this week- and lots and lots of synchronicity!!! I would think of someone and see them. I would be reminded of someone and they would call. The connections were uncanny. Things came through that had been pending for quite some time. Both in professional accomplishments and financial. I got discounts- coupons- practicing accepting freebies- I even played the lottery- won some money but lost more. Still blocked in that regard I think- perhaps scared of what decisions I would have to make if I did win!! It is something to think about!
It tells you to add to your image file of what you would do if money was no object- certainly pay off all debt and I took a photo of a property that I want to buy to add to our home:) That one just feels like it is going to happen! I would also love a two week stint at a spa that focused on teaching nutrition, cooking, fitness and mental well being- I would love to go with a friend and have a wonderful spiritual awakening!!! 2 on the list!!! travel – i have lots of plans for travel- also I would love to have more money in savings so that we would not have to worry about paying the bills! I am not worries:)
The artist date I am stating that it is going to a Farmer’s Market- although i did not go alone I did go for the first time and it was eye opening- not sure if I liked it very much but a good experience. I made a deal with myself to Discover Miami! learn more about the place where I live. Also, I enjoyed organizing my dreams so that I can have more focus! Open to all the abundance little by little- hopefully more and more- fully open! It is true that God has given us all the talents to enjoy the greatness of the abundance that is life. I just need to visualize what i want open my eyes and open my arms to accept it fully! I will be working on the lottery as I go forward! Becoming more and more a person of substance! Yay!
Looking forward to continuing the journey!!! God bless! And remember the soul is going to get what it comes here to get! Be open that!
Proud to say I made this!
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